Why hellllloooooo there, mama!
I’m Amber! A #SelfHealing mama of multiple littles who had a pretty traumatic childhood. I figured that I can’t be the only one struggling with it all so why not share my journey along the way as I figure this whole ‘parenting while healing’ thing out.
SPOILER ALERT: THIS JOURNEY AIN’T EASY
In fact, it feels next to impossible some days. But other days… I feel on top of the world and that I really got this thing down. When I see my children processing emotions, showing compassion for others, and expressing how I’m “the best mommy ever” – I know I’m doing something right.
But I haven’t always had “good days” – it wasn’t long ago that nearly every day was a complete disaster.
2 years ago is when I started my healing process and before that… things weren’t pretty. I had absolute no concept of processing emotions, coping with hardships, or even doing something as basic as keeping my home clean.
I would fly off the handle multiple times a day, let my house turn into an absolute wreck, and just accept that I was going to be miserable for the rest of my life (and continue to make others lives miserable as well).
My breaking point was when I almost broke up my family. My trauma paired with my mental health got to the point that I was unintentionally sabotaging my relationship with not only my kids, but my partner as well (bless him for being so supportive and always having faith in me).
THE GOOD NEWS IS THERE IS HOPE
I had a moment where I really saw the big picture, knew what I wanted my future to look like, and realized things needed to change. So I took the first step by taking control of my serious anger problem. I started rewiring the way my brain and nervous system responded when I got angry. And let me tell you – that was the hardest thing I have ever done to this day.
That was the moment I started to change my entire life.
In the months and years that followed, I changed my entire being of what makes me, well me. I started setting boundaries, forming amazing friendships, developing habits, and sooooo much more. I couldn’t begin to list everything out that has changed in just two short years.
Let this be proof to you that you can start to heal the trauma leftover from your childhood. You are more than capable of living the life you want to have – even if it feels impossible right now.